Our Little Blessing

Sorry it’s been awhile since I’ve posted, but we’ve been a little busy growing a human!!! 😍😍😍🎉

Once we got the go ahead from the Repro Specialist, we began trying again. We were blessed to conceive again right away! 
Here’s our announcement we shared on my personal accounts….:

“God is so good y’all! We are so excited to finally announce that Baby Longmire is on the way ❤❤❤ We’re by no means ‘out of the woods’ yet…but we’ve been open about things thus far and want to continue to be. We feel really good about this baby and have a feeling this is the one! We’ve seen baby twice now and so far, everything is perfect!

We have appreciated everyone’s prayers over us up to this point & would love continued prayers for our sweet double rainbow baby 🌈👶🏻🌈 #doublerainbow #expecting #October2017 #Octoberbaby #babyLongmire”

We didn’t want to wait any longer to announce because why keep this precious little life a secret any longer than we had to?? We’re so exteremely excited and couldn’t wait to share the news, though it was a very scary leap to make.

We’ve been very lucky in the sense that our specialist doctor has kept a super close eye on us thus far. We found out at 4 weeks along. They then had us do blood work twice a week to check my levels and make sure everything was rising as it was supposed to. Then once we hit the 6 week mark we were able to have our first, early ultrasound.

Up until this point we had never had a successful ultrasound so we were both a bit terrified. Each of the other times the ultrasounds had confirmed that we had lost our babies. But we had a different feeling this time and while still scared to death, we tried to remain positive and hopeful.

We went in at 6 weeks and 3 days and immediately when the ultrasound began, we could see the little flicker of a heartbeat pounding away ❤❤❤ That was the most reliving thing that could have happened. Our doctor said usually you have to look a second to find the heartbeat that early but there it was right away, showing us that things were okay. We stared on in awe as we watched the little heart pound and we were even able to listen to it, though it was hard to hear that early on. The heartrate was at 107 which is good for that early. So far, everything was looking perfect! (Below you can see the little heart looking like a bright, shining light!)

(Might be able to hear if you listen closely!)

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Though we were thrilled by most of the news during our appointment, we also got a little not so good news. There had originally been twins. You can see the “collapsing” (as the Dr. called it) sac above the one holding baby. It appears lighter gray and more fuzzy. He said this one didn’t have a viable baby as there was no heartbeat and that it was in the process of collapsing and re-absorbing.

While we were saddened by this news, we knew that we were still tremendously blessed to have one healthy baby on our hands and that we needed to keep our focus on that. Maybe had there been two, there would have been more complications. Maybe my body wouldn’t be able to handle carrying two. Whatever the reason, we believe God knows what he’s doing and that for whatever reason, this pregnancy needed to be one with our single baby. So we are trusting in that.

We went ahead and took our announcement pictures with a friend of mind and decided to share our news after our 8 week ultrasound if all went well. Below are our pictures with our 6 week ultrasound

As we finished up pictures and were leaving, I was talking about the pretty sunset that had happened to come up in the middle of our little shoot and went on to say, “THANK YOU GOD!!” (Referring obviously to the beautiful sunset he gave us for the pictures) But looking back now I realize subconsciously I was thanking God for MUCH MORE in that moment 🙌🏻🙌🏻

Not long after I started to get the dreaded morning sickness (which is false, it’s all day for me). Luckily I haven’t actually gotten sick, it’s just been pretty regular nausea. My doctor even offered to give me medicine to relieve me of this symptom but, strange as it is, after going through loss you begin to crave these symptoms! Symptoms like these reassure you that things are progressing and happening like they should. So I continued on without medicine, enjoying (???) the nauseous feeling of my baby growing on! Never thought I’d be grateful for feeling so sickly 🤢🤢🤔

We then waited a longgggg 2 weeks until our 8 week ultrasound. We were dreading this one a bit as the 8th week is the week where things had gone wrong in the past.. We hoped and prayed for a still strong heartbeat and a growing baby.

God put our minds to rest once more as we heard a stronger, louder, much more clear heartbeat than the previous one just 2 weeks before! (It really is insane how much a little babe can grow in such a short period of time!) Our baby that was about the size of a pea was now the size of a strawberry! This time we had a heartbeat of 157 which is perfect for that far along! You can already see the little head, body, and arms ❤❤❤

We left feeling relieved but also still cautious. After all, we were just at 8 weeks and 3 days. That still left several days in the dreaded 8 week zone. To say getting through that week was easy would be a complete lie. But I found comfort in sharing our news with the world. Though it felt very risky to do this early on and not even out of the week we feared most, I knew now was when we needed the extra prayers the most.

As I sit here typing this now, I’m glad to say that I’m now 9 weeks and 1 day along. I feel good and think that everything I well at this point (though we won’t know for sure until our 10 week appointment). I’m still feeling nauseous and exhausted so I like to think that that’s a good sign! 🙏🏻

A friend of mine that I’ve met through this process (makingamomma) recently wrote on her blog being “frustrated that the innocence of pregnancy has been ripped away by the loss of a pregnancy” and that hit home for me. I don’t know that I’ll ever get to a point in this pregnancy where there isn’t fear in the back of my mind or where I don’t worry about every pain or symptom or lack there of. But I do know that going through the losses that we have will make us a thousand times more greateful for these future little blessings we get to carry and raise ❤🌈👶🏻 

Please pray for us in our continued journey and for this little miracle (cause all babies truly are) growing in my belly to continue to thrive! 🙏🏻🙏🏻