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Our Little Blessing

Sorry it’s been awhile since I’ve posted, but we’ve been a little busy growing a human!!! πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸŽ‰

Once we got the go ahead from the Repro Specialist, we began trying again. We were blessed to conceive again right away! 
Here’s our announcement we shared on my personal accounts….:

“God is so good y’all! We are so excited to finally announce that Baby Longmire is on the way ❀❀❀ We’re by no means ‘out of the woods’ yet…but we’ve been open about things thus far and want to continue to be. We feel really good about this baby and have a feeling this is the one! We’ve seen baby twice now and so far, everything is perfect!

We have appreciated everyone’s prayers over us up to this point & would love continued prayers for our sweet double rainbow baby πŸŒˆπŸ‘ΆπŸ»πŸŒˆ #doublerainbow #expecting #October2017 #Octoberbaby #babyLongmire”

We didn’t want to wait any longer to announce because why keep this precious little life a secret any longer than we had to?? We’re so exteremely excited and couldn’t wait to share the news, though it was a very scary leap to make.

We’ve been very lucky in the sense that our specialist doctor has kept a super close eye on us thus far. We found out at 4 weeks along. They then had us do blood work twice a week to check my levels and make sure everything was rising as it was supposed to. Then once we hit the 6 week mark we were able to have our first, early ultrasound.

Up until this point we had never had a successful ultrasound so we were both a bit terrified. Each of the other times the ultrasounds had confirmed that we had lost our babies. But we had a different feeling this time and while still scared to death, we tried to remain positive and hopeful.

We went in at 6 weeks and 3 days and immediately when the ultrasound began, we could see the little flicker of a heartbeat pounding away ❀❀❀ That was the most reliving thing that could have happened. Our doctor said usually you have to look a second to find the heartbeat that early but there it was right away, showing us that things were okay. We stared on in awe as we watched the little heart pound and we were even able to listen to it, though it was hard to hear that early on. The heartrate was at 107 which is good for that early. So far, everything was looking perfect! (Below you can see the little heart looking like a bright, shining light!)


(Might be able to hear if you listen closely!)

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Though we were thrilled by most of the news during our appointment, we also got a little not so good news. There had originally been twins. You can see the “collapsing” (as the Dr. called it) sac above the one holding baby. It appears lighter gray and more fuzzy. He said this one didn’t have a viable baby as there was no heartbeat and that it was in the process of collapsing and re-absorbing.

While we were saddened by this news, we knew that we were still tremendously blessed to have one healthy baby on our hands and that we needed to keep our focus on that. Maybe had there been two, there would have been more complications. Maybe my body wouldn’t be able to handle carrying two. Whatever the reason, we believe God knows what he’s doing and that for whatever reason, this pregnancy needed to be one with our single baby. So we are trusting in that.

We went ahead and took our announcement pictures with a friend of mind and decided to share our news after our 8 week ultrasound if all went well. Below are our pictures with our 6 week ultrasound

As we finished up pictures and were leaving, I was talking about the pretty sunset that had happened to come up in the middle of our little shoot and went on to say, “THANK YOU GOD!!” (Referring obviously to the beautiful sunset he gave us for the pictures) But looking back now I realize subconsciously I was thanking God for MUCH MORE in that moment πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ™ŒπŸ»

Not long after I started to get the dreaded morning sickness (which is false, it’s all day for me). Luckily I haven’t actually gotten sick, it’s just been pretty regular nausea. My doctor even offered to give me medicine to relieve me of this symptom but, strange as it is, after going through loss you begin to crave these symptoms! Symptoms like these reassure you that things are progressing and happening like they should. So I continued on without medicine, enjoying (???) the nauseous feeling of my baby growing on! Never thought I’d be grateful for feeling so sickly πŸ€’πŸ€’πŸ€”

We then waited a longgggg 2 weeks until our 8 week ultrasound. We were dreading this one a bit as the 8th week is the week where things had gone wrong in the past.. We hoped and prayed for a still strong heartbeat and a growing baby.

God put our minds to rest once more as we heard a stronger, louder, much more clear heartbeat than the previous one just 2 weeks before! (It really is insane how much a little babe can grow in such a short period of time!) Our baby that was about the size of a pea was now the size of a strawberry! This time we had a heartbeat of 157 which is perfect for that far along! You can already see the little head, body, and arms ❀❀❀

We left feeling relieved but also still cautious. After all, we were just at 8 weeks and 3 days. That still left several days in the dreaded 8 week zone. To say getting through that week was easy would be a complete lie. But I found comfort in sharing our news with the world. Though it felt very risky to do this early on and not even out of the week we feared most, I knew now was when we needed the extra prayers the most.

As I sit here typing this now, I’m glad to say that I’m now 9 weeks and 1 day along. I feel good and think that everything I well at this point (though we won’t know for sure until our 10 week appointment). I’m still feeling nauseous and exhausted so I like to think that that’s a good sign! πŸ™πŸ»

A friend of mine that I’ve met through this process (makingamomma) recently wrote on her blog being “frustrated that the innocence of pregnancy has been ripped away by the loss of a pregnancy” and that hit home for me. I don’t know that I’ll ever get to a point in this pregnancy where there isn’t fear in the back of my mind or where I don’t worry about every pain or symptom or lack there of. But I do know that going through the losses that we have will make us a thousand times more greateful for these future little blessings we get to carry and raise β€πŸŒˆπŸ‘ΆπŸ» 

Please pray for us in our continued journey and for this little miracle (cause all babies truly are) growing in my belly to continue to thrive! πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»

These Are a Few of My Favorite Things

Our Wolf Creek Vacay πŸ—»β›·

When Clayton and I very first started dating we went on a ski trip with his family. He grew up in Abilene, which is a pretty far drive away from any good skiing mountains, so he had never been up until this trip. I, on the other hand, began skiing with my parents when I was around 4 or 5 years old. Growing up in Amarillo we were always a quick trip away from the mountains, so I grew up going most winters with my family. I was looking forward to helping him learn and getting to share in one of my favorite things with him! Being a naturally athletic guy, he picked it up very quickly. From that point on he’s been hooked and it’s been one of our favorite things to go do together ever since! We try to make at least one trip a year now.
To say we needed a getaway as of lately would be an extreme understatement. So that’s exactly what we did! A few of my favorite memories with my parents growing up were in Pagosa Springs, CO. I’ve wanted to take Clayton to Wolf Creek/Pagosa Springs for as long as I’ve known him. We were finally able to make this year the year and booked our trip!

The Wolf Creek Ski Resort doesn’t have anywhere to stay on the mountain. It’s a little bit of a drive from where you can stay in Pagosa Springs, but totally worth it. Wolf Creek is famously known as having the most snow in Colorado, which makes it an amazing ski destination and every bit worth the ~30 minute drive to the mountain. As far as staying in Pagosa Springs goes…the name gives away what is so appealing about this location. THE NATURAL HOT SPRINGS! 


We found a cute little Airbnb in Pagosa and then just checked out the cute little Pagosa Brewery down the street for dinner on our first night in town. Since I’m not the biggest beer fan, hubby enjoyed the house made brews (and by enjoyed I mean he completely loved them) while I fell in love with all the yummy food!


The next morning I was sweetly surprised with this little homemade breakfast fella by my darling hubs πŸ˜†

Our first full day there we were off to the slopes! The snow was as amazing as I had remembered. They had just received quite a bit of snow in the days before we arrived, so there was really good powder. Luckily for us, the storms had stopped in time for us to come in safely and the sun was out and shining for us during our whole trip!

Later on that night we went to dinner at a delicious Country French restaurant where we raved about our food choices throughout the entire meal because it was just THAT good!! Afterwards we went to one of my favorite places I’ve ever been to, The Springs! They have 23 natural mineral hot spring pools ranging from 83 degrees to 114 degrees F. They’re all positioned along the San Juan River and the view is amazingly beautiful! The mineral waters are also said to have healing powers. We always used to go at night (since we’re busy skiing during the day) so that’s what we did this time as well. I love the nighttime atmosphere because they turn on a bunch of pretty, twinkling lights and lanterns to light the area and it gives off a pretty glow throughout the springs. The springs being so hot in the crisp mountain air make them billow out steam over the entire area. The thick steam in the dark night sky makes you feel as though you’ve been taken to another world full of warm pools pouring off of huge mineral buildups. It really does feel magical! The steam, however, makes picture taking very hard if you can imagine! So below are the few pictures I could get while we were actually there. The daytime ones are taken from afar to better show the springs. I highly recommend everyone make a visit at some point in time!! You won’t be disappointed. 

After a refreshing soak to help our bodies recover from our first day of skiing, we were ready for our second and last day on the mountain. We found several new trails that we hadn’t been on the day before. Our favorites wound all throughout the trees and were pleasantly secluded in comparison to the rest of the mountain!​

​We wrapped up our last night at another cute brewery, Riff Raff Brewing Co., where I had a delicious sangria (cinnamon + brown sugar added in — who would’ve thought that’d be so tasty?!!)

We got up the next morning and did some shopping around the adorable little mountain town of Pagosa Springs on our way out of town. It was a quicker trip than we would have preferred but I loved every second of our much needed vacay! Until next time, Wolf Creek πŸ’™β„οΈπŸ—»β›·πŸŽΏπŸ’‹

Beauty · These Are a Few of My Favorite Things

Lippy ObsessionΒ 

Let’s me just start this by saying NO, I do not sell the product! I’m just obsessed and wanted to share with others that haven’t heard of or tried it yet πŸ˜πŸ‘πŸΌ The lips that don’t quit!! LIPSENSE πŸ’‹

This lipstick is to die for. I’m not even normally a huge lipstick person but this changed my mind. I usually don’t like it for the mere fact that if I were to wear it, it’d be to dinner or a party with drinks or something of the sort where I’m eating or drinking. I don’t like reapplying in public! It takes away from what I’m doing and it’s almost always necessary after eating or drinking anything. With LipSense, you just put on gloss before you eat and all the color stays put!

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So, naturally, I went overboard and got a million colors πŸ˜… In my opinion it’s money well spent if you aren’t reapplying all day long. It’s just one and done so the product ends up lasting longer than your other lipsticks that you’d be having to touch up all throughout the day.


Many I know have trouble even getting it off at night when they’re TRYING in every way to get it off! I will say, the LipSense Oops! Remover + coconut oil OR Neutrogena wipes will do the trick! Otherwise, you might be wearing the same shade again the next day πŸ™ƒ

All of their colors are amazing and you can mix and match different ones to create a whole new color or to lighten or darken the shade. There are also different types of gloss that can change any color you wear into something slightly different.


The way you buy this product is through a distributor. There are tons of them so one near you should be easy to find if you’re looking! I can also direct you to mine if needed — just contact me! ❀️ The distributors are awesome because they can look at your skin tone and tell you what colors you would look amazing in and what colors you should stay away from (oranges for me!!). I’m able to pull some from the warm shades and some from the cool shades as well whereas my mom has to stay more in the warm color zone.

So long story short, if you’re a fan of makeup… just trust me. This stuff is gold!! Give it a shot πŸ’‹πŸ’„

Beauty · These Are a Few of My Favorite Things

Change!

Change is good! Change is sometimes a necessity and sometimes just a fun little decision. When life gets hard, sometimes you just want to make a change. And so, I did!

Everyone tells me to NEVER EVER cut my hair.. haha I get it, it always been long, pretty, and healthy. But after all, it is MY hair! I wanted and needed a change in my life that I could actually have a say in and control and so…*snip snip*!

BEFORE:


AFTER:


I’m loving my new change and glad I took the leap! After all, hair is just hair and it WILL grow back! I fully intend to grow it back out and until then, I’ll enjoy being several pounds lighter πŸ˜† 

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Our Love Story

Clayton and I met by chance through mutual friends. My freshman year of college I happened to be in Abilene, his hometown, on a road trip with two of my sorority sisters. We were there to see a friend of one of my road trip buddy’s that happened to be Clayton’s roommate! 

Though he was around for just a short while that weekend, I took notice. He was handsome and had an attractive, deep voice, an easygoing way to him, and a talent with the guitar (swoon). But the thing that appealed to me most was the open bible he had left laying out one morning before he left. This caught my eye because most guys our age didn’t seem to have religion at such a high priority. From that point I was intrigued.

I attempted to play it cool during the brief time we saw him before we left. I thought that surely I would never see this guy again since I had no reason to ever be back in Abilene, TX. So we all said our goodbyes and headed back to Lubbock. We stopped at a gas station to fill up on our way out of town. I’ll never forget it because, little did I know then, that’s where our story would begin. I mentioned casually that I though he was attractive. My friend then took it upon herself to let her friend know this piece of information and of course, he then told Clayton (yes, I was embarrassed, but also slightly giddy at the thought that he might then be interested as well).

Apparently he was at least the slightest bit curious, because not long after I had a Facebook message waiting for me. The gist of it was that I seemed like a “pretty cool girl” (cheesy now, it still makes us giggle) and that he’d like to get to know me better if I was interested, along with his phone number. Of course the three of us girls lost it in the car ride back after we read that! πŸ˜‚ 

A little unsure because of the whole distance thing, and hello!!!, I DIDN’T hardly even know the guy…but nonetheless, I sent him a text the next day. We then went on talking, all day everyday, for the next several months. We didn’t know where anything would go and at one point I was even so bold as to ask. I was a little deflated when he answered that he just saw us as friends for now, because I had gotten past the ‘just friends’ feeling by that point. But stubborn as I am, I knew that there was more to this relationship than friendship, even if he didn’t yet (haha)! πŸ˜‰ 

He then went on to visit me several times in Lubbock. Our first (I call it date, he didn’t know what to call it) was to a movie premier. But it wasn’t just any movie….it was one of the Twilight series premieres…you know, the vampire ones that girls for some reason loved and men for sure did not…..(oops) and it was with about 8 of my sorority sisters πŸ™ƒ (bless his heart). I knew he was a good guy when he went, was the only guy, didn’t complain, AND actually seemed to enjoy himself with us! Another trip he made to Lubbock was for a date party (usually themed sorority parties where you bring a date) and the theme was “Once Upon a Time”……. Every girls dream? Probably. Every guys dream? Not so much. But he was still a trooper and even helped me come up with our costume idea, Woody & Bo Peep from Toy Story! (And trust me, that was not the end of all of the dress up parties. Ohhhh no, that was just the tip of the iceberg!! *some pictured below) He then went on to visit me another time or two in Lubbock and I went a few times to see him in Abilene.

Not even a month after our ‘just friends for now’ conversation, I noticed that our topics had gotten much deeper and our tone much more than pure friendship. I knew that I was falling for this guy that I’d met just two short months ago and I knew that there was something on his end as well. He let on that I was right and that there were feelings that had built that he had been denying, and I knew that this was indeed going to turn into something. We then developed a more romantic relationship and were seeing each other every weekend from that point on, but we still weren’t a ‘couple’ yet by label terms.

So my bold (slightly impatient?) little self decided that I did, indeed, love him and so why not just say it?! 😱 Nervous as all get out, I was home in Amarillo for Christmas break and lying in my old bed in the bedroom of my childhood house. It was Christmas Eve and we were talking until the wee hours of the morning. We said our good nights and then, with a racing heart, when I knew he would be asleep…I typed out a text saying, “I love you” and hit ‘send’. πŸ˜±πŸ˜­πŸ˜–πŸ˜³πŸ˜πŸ˜œπŸ˜†πŸ™ƒπŸ˜°πŸ˜± Yes, I said I love you first. And yes, I panicked a little after doing so!! But with the damage done, I went to sleep leaving the effects of that message to be determined the next day.

To my (surprise? delight? all of the above?) I had a text waiting for me when I woke up. “I’ve been wanting to tell you for awhile now but wanted it to be in person, but I love you, too :)”. I just about died when I read those words, and then with it was another message, “Oh, and Merry Christmas!” Ummmm yeah!! Merry freakin Christmas to me indeed!!! πŸ˜† From that point on, we were inseparable (and official)!

Fast forward a year and a half of long distance (which truly does suck, if you were wondering) we were still living apart and having a hard time with it. His school kept him in Abilene and mine kept me in Lubbock. But after he finished paramedic school, we decided we didn’t want to do the distance anymore. He was going to move!! I still had some school left to go so that’s why he decided to come to me.

Marriage had been discussed at this point and we said we would most likely go back to Abilene once I finished up with school. We were ready to start our new chapter together and to FINALLY be done with all of the distance! We had shortly lived together over the summer while he was between school ending and his graduation, but I was nervous about the situation becoming permanent. I was wary about living with him just because I was a little old fashioned in that way. I wanted to be married, or at least engaged!, before I made that huge step with someone. Luckily for me, we had a little trip planned!

Our moms had gotten to know each other through us on a few occasions by that point and got along very well. We thought that a trip with the four of us sounded fun so we set off for Mexico! Once we were on our way, all of my friends were anxiously texting me little well wishes. They were all convinced that we would be getting engaged on this trip (because, hello?!?!! What better place than Cabo for a romantic engagement?!). I have to say, I too was hopeful and a little anxious.

After our first day there, I told my mom that while I was hopeful..I just didn’t see an engagement happening on this trip. We had just had an amazing day exploring Cabo but I just wasn’t feeling ‘it’. I wasn’t feeling that something big was coming and I didn’t want to waste away our vacation being anxious waiting for something or disappointed if nothing happened. So then and there before going to dinner that night I decided that I was going to drop it and just enjoy myself and my time with my people.

I somehow didn’t notice that Clayton wasn’t eating much at dinner and also didn’t notice that he wasn’t saying much. We were all just enjoying our dinnertime show that the resort put on. After we finished eating he asked if I wanted to take a picture on the beach. (Um, YES I do!) If you know me at all, you know that I, 1. Have a horrible memory and 2. LOVE to take pictures of EVERYTHING (perhaps subconsciously so that I can help with #1 and have all the pictures to remember the memories by!) So we walk down to the beach as the sun starts to go down and I notice that he’s walking a weirdly far distance away from me. I also notice he isn’t really talking and wonder what the deal is. He finally turns and comes towards me as I turn and get ready to pose for a picture. He then stops me and kneels down on one knee and I really wish I could tell you what was said after that point because honestly I just remember seeing trembling and tears and hearing myself say some shaky, choked out version of, “yes!!!” 

So yeah, that helped put my mind to ease a little about the living together situation…….and the whole being engaged part wasn’t too terrible either πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰

We then had a year and three month long engagement filled with Clayton graduating and moving, me finishing school, him working as a paramedic, decorating our rental house, wedding planning, and spending time with our fur baby Sandie (whom I had had since high school).

Towards the end of that long engagement time, we bought a new furry addition to our family (Tuff) and bought our first house!! Clayton also got on full time with the Lubbock Fire Department, which has always been his dream job!

Fast forward to September, 27 2014. We got married in Canyon, TX just outside of my hometown at a place called Country Home Weddings. It was the most beautiful night and everything that we had planned came together flawlessly as we finally joined together as one and left as husband and wife!

 

Two years later here we are! Clayton is still a firefighter (which is why we chose Lubbock as our permanent home) and works part time as a paramedic in two small surrounding areas. I’m now working at a daycare and work with babies that are newborn-2 year olds and am absolutely in love with it! Sandie and Tuff are as spoiled as ever and we are currently working on expanding our little family (but that is a whole other story that has yet to come)! 

Married Life · Our Pack · These Are a Few of My Favorite Things

Our Little Pack–

Hi Y’all!,

I’m Stephanie. A twenty-four year old who resides in Texas with my husband Clayton and our two pups!

Clayton & I were married in September of 2014. I attended Texas Tech University and graduated with a Bachelors in Animal Science in May of 2015. I then went on to work with kids and adults with disabilities at a therapeutic horseback riding facility where I remained for about a year and a half. It was a job that I loved because I got to be around animals, a huge passion of mine, as well as work with children which have always been close to my heart. Circumstances then lead to a job change and I began work at a daycare where I currently work today!

This blog will be all about being a newlywed, marriage, our lives together, our amazing friendships, and our struggle and journey to become parents. We love our “pack” dearly and look forward to sharing our lives with you on our way to expanding it!